Family Time – A personal post

“I sustain myself with the love of family.”
― Maya Angelou

It was a beautiful day. The temps were mild, not quite warm enough to use our pool, but not so cool we needed sweatshirts. My husband and I decided we would take our youngest to the school playground so she could get some exercise, work on those large motor skills and just have some fun. As we were getting ready to leave I went into my 15 year old’s room to tell him we were leaving, he gave me a look that only a mother would recognize. See I didn’t think he would want to go, being he’s 15 and if you’ve got teens, you know that they just normally wouldn’t want to hang out at the playground with their parents and little sister. Back to that look, I could tell he wanted to go, never even had to say it. I told him to get ready and we would wait for him. Lesson learned for this mom, ask the teenager if he wants to go and never assume he won’t want too. I am so glad he wanted to come, it really never feels complete when he’s not with us and I truly enjoy this young mans company.

It was a nice time. My daughter had fun running around, climbing and hanging upside down. My husband even got in on the play time action and was climbing and went and sat on the tire swing. My son, of course, had to do some insane crazy things that could really hurt him….he’s an adrenaline junky and for him the more risky, the more fun.

We don’t get the chance to get out much together and just relax and have fun. When we do, I cherish them. Family time is so vital. It is the life blood that shapes our lives, it is what fills our memory banks that can be shared in future generations, it is the very foundation on which we build. Our Children, once they are adults, don’t look back and remember the things we bought for them, the cool toys, the fabulous designer clothes. No, they remember the moments, the times spent together, the time given, the way you listened, the way you loved, the laughs, the hugs, that is what sticks with them through their life. The memories are their home and they will take home with them wherever they go.

Blessings,
Kristen Marie

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“The bond that links your true family is not one of blood, but of respect and joy in each other’s life. Rarely do members of one family grow up under the same roof.”
― Richard Bach

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Light in the Shadows – KML Creatives

So, I am a notorious backlight shooter. I love it, it makes me swoon. I have no shame in it. I love soft, dreamy and whimsical images. I love images that draw you in and just kind of make you sigh, make you want to climb right in and soak in the peacefulness. I like to look at an image and see my subjects lost in their own thoughts. I strive to make images like this. Sometimes I win, sometimes not so much. But it’s a never ending quest of mine. However, I have been wanting to challenge myself a little, step out of my comfort zone of backlighting while keeping all the other aspects of what I love. So, I’ve been on the hunt for pockets of light in the shadows. There is this spot right out my front door that I’ve been watching while the sun is making it’s southward journey. I knew I had to get my sweet girl into this sweet little spot. I knew it had to be a clear day and had to be during the golden hour. Ya know, that last hour before the sun sets. This way I had a natural reflector from the sun shinning down on my front lawn and the wide open sky in front of her. The sun to her back, with little light rays filtering through the trees behind her. I know, it sounds like I am still backlighting, but this is very different from my usual backlighting. There is no open sky behind her at all, just bit of sun dancing in the leaves of the tree behind. I knew it would make for some dreamy bokeh. So, off we went, all 50 steps out our front door, my sweet little one and me.

I can honestly say I am tickled pink with the results. The images made are still everything I love, with some new feelings gently tossed in the mix. I think I will be challenging myself much more in the future.

equipment used : Nikon D600 – 50mm 1.4G
wide open sky as a natural reflector
settings: ISO 100 – 1.4 – 1/1250s

Blessings ♥ Kristen Marie

The Apple Orchard – Childhood Photography

After a over a month of being confined to my bed, I FINALLY am getting around to a bit of normalcy!!! WOOT!!!

One thing I have been desperately wanting to do is this session with my daughter. I had found this adorable 70’s vintage dress on Etsy and have had this session in mind since the beginning of August. It was an incredibly beautiful day yesterday and I was feeling pretty much amazing, in comparison to what I have been feeling and I was determined to do this session. I don’t normally blog so many images, but it was next to impossible to pick just a few. I wanted the whole story told as best as I could. I adore these images. They may not be technically perfect in anyway, but honestly….I DO NOT CARE!!!! They represent some fun quality time with my little baby girl (who really isn’t so little anymore) something that she has been seriously missing since I have been bed bound. My whole family has been missing, well…me. It’s not easy being stuck in bed for so long. Hopefully I am on my way to health and getting back to being a mom and wife.

These images are a treasure to me and I just had to share them. I hope you will enjoy the innocence of childhood that I was trying to convey.

Have a blessed day.

Please do forgive my storyboards being a little out of whack! I was in to much of a hurry to get it done…shame on me 😉

Equipment used: Nikon D600, Nikkor 50 1.4G
Settings: ISO 250 – f2.2 to 2.5 – 1/800s to 1/1000s

Owning up – A personal blog post

I have a confession to make. I am a cigaret smoker. I have been a smoker since I was 13. I’ve smoked 30 years! 30 years out of my 43. That’s 75% of my life filling my lungs with toxic poison, taking away precious time from my longevity. Cigarettes have been a constant companion in my life. They’ve always been there when I’m stressed, sad, happy, excited or just quiet. They’ve never judged me, looked down on me or belittled me. They helped me get through some of the hardest times in my life, been there to celebrate the best. They’ve just always been there, by my side, the one constant thing in my world for the past 30 years.

 

Unfortunately, I was wrong about the friendship we had. I denied to myself how bad they really are for me. Ignored the damage they were doing. Brushed off the pleas of friends and family to walk away from, say goodbye and never let them hurt me again. I convinced myself that I just really needed them in my life. Even as much as I despise the very smell of them, the cost to have them in my life and hated them for taking so much precious other things I could do for or with my children. It is the truest definition of a love/hate relationship. I am saying goodbye to this faux friend. I’m at a place in my life now that if something or someone is not lifting me up, then I have no room or time for it. It needs to go. My children hate this untrue friend of mine. They want it gone. It’s taken me a long time to get to this point. I’ve realized that I was afraid to let go of it. My life has been a crazy ride. I’ve traveled down some insane roads. Nothing ever seemed consistent. I just never knew what was waiting for me around the corner. The only consistent and constant in my life has been my cigarettes. They’ve been my security, only in the sense that they were always, always there for me. I actually enjoyed them. I loved the taste and feel of what they did when I inhaled them. So it’s been the fear of letting go of the only thing I felt I could count on always being there. I’ve changed my mind. The one consistent and constant in my life, the one thing I could count on to always be there isn’t cigarettes…. It’s ME!!! I’m the constant, I’m the consistent, I’m the one that is always there and I’m the one that gets me through, I’m the one to depend on… ME!! And I sure as hell deserve a whole lot better!! I need to stop hurting myself. On top of all that, there is my children to think of. I look into their eyes and know they too deserve better. They deserve to have a healthy mom. They certainly don’t deserve to watch me suffer from disease that could be prevented just by saying goodbye to something that only serves to harm me.

So I am starting a new chapter in my life. I know it won’t be easy. Old habits are easy to fall back on. I know it’s going to be rough riding for awhile. But I am determined to give this up. To not feel embarrassed and ashamed of the company I kept, this faux friend of mine. 30 years is a long time and for awhile I will mourn the loss. I just have remember all the lies I told myself and remember how beautiful and amazing the future can be without it. If you too have this faux friend and are wanting to say goodbye. Or if you have already said goodbye. Even if you have been affected by that untrue friend, I’d love to hear your story. I’d love to be a support to you and of course get all the support you want to offer. We can lift one another up. One can never have to much support and encouragement.

I will write as I begin this new chapter. My goal is to be smoke free for way longer than I’ve been smoked filled.

Blessings ♥

Kristen Marie

 

My Bliss this Past Week

So I have a brand spanking new goal to blog about my sometimes crazy, sometimes really boring and sometimes just shake my head life once a week. Taking little snap shots both with my phone and camera (ya never know what I may have handy at the moment) and in little stories. Now hopefully, fingers crossed – toes too – that I will keep up with this.  I live a pretty “normal” life, nothing out of the ordinary, but it’s my life, my family and I love it.

This is where I will post weekly, right here on this page and keep the most recent story up top. So feel free to be a peeper and come read all about my life, my bliss.

Week in Review

It’s been an interesting week for me. I have come to the conclusion that I really have lost my mind.

I’ll start out with last Friday. My hubby is a tractor pull crazy man and he has wanted to be a part of it for a very l0ng, vs just being spectator. Well – YAY!!! for dreams coming true! He has a friend that has a couple pulling tractors and this friend told him he could use his tractor to pull. So, the hubs got to pull for the very first time last Friday night.  He was very excited and did a pretty well for being a first timer. So happy for him!

Here he is after the pull with the tractor and our kiddos.

On to way I think I have lost my mind. All last  week and weekend – well until Saturday evening anyway – I thought it was Father’s Day weekend. So I took the weekend off to spend all this time with my family, only to find out I was a week ahead. I felt quite silly. However, I enjoyed my work free weekend anyway and the bonus – I get to do it again this week, now that I am on track.

Saturday was a pretty lazy and relaxing day, we didn’t do much during the day but come late evening, we headed to the beach to eat some pizza, let the kids play and watch the sunset. Ahhh how I love summer. My silly son was bored waiting for the sun to set so I gave him a challenge. There was this rather large rock on the beach that was extremely heavy. It was quite a ways away from us, so I challenged him to get the rock over by us. Well, my son, being all boy, stubborn and determined decided to take on this challenge. Over the course of the next 30 minutes this kid rolled this heavy rock over to me. He was not about to give up. I did try to get my husband to go give him a hand, hubby thought it more entertaining to just watch him. MEN!
A beautiful weekend.

The boy and the rock…

a few snaps of the kids enjoying the summer beach…

how we ended the day….beautiful sunset and the rock 🙂

As for the rest of the week. For some odd reason I thought it would be ok for me to work 14+ hours a day ALL week! What was I thinking?  So between working all that time, Hunter had friends over, our 6 week old kittens decided to take over the house, we got our pool all set up, which means mud and water in the house, by the way – I did do some cleaning to our little pig sty as did hubby ( how I love him for helping) – we found a home for one of the kittens, still have at least one left to go. Hunter wants to keep one, Rayne wants to keep another – couldn’t they want the same kitten? sheesh! Did a mountain of laundry, rescued my daughter from her earring getting caught in my mesh back support on my desk chair, sent my husband some obscene texts brought to by auto correct, gave the Bella dog a bath – only to have her go roll in the dirt again the next day. Watered my flowers, feeling perturbed about the rose bugs that are eating EVERYTHING! Dealt with legs falling asleep from sitting at my computer for to long, wondering why my arm was also going numb – realizing using a tablet pen with my elbow resting on my desk ALL day is not going to prevent that. Talked with my Mom – got some news about my Grandfather who has not been doing so well. Decided I really need to plan a family trip to Boston to see him very soon. Bella dog keeps getting in the garbage and will not quit eating from the kitty litter box ( EEWWW) then I have to clean up her puke because, lets face it, garbage and cat pooh is not good for anyone’s tummy, even a dogs. Non stop listening to my son complain he is bored, there is nothing to eat in the house (ok, we DO need to go shopping) listening to my kids argue. Had to brush my daughters very long (down to her tush) hair that I hadn’t done in two days, NIGHTMARE! Note to self, even if her hair is all pulled back, braided and bobby pinned does not mean it will not get into a tangled mess anyway. Discussed with hubby about getting a small pole barn so we can move some of our crap out of the house ( oh and so I can buy more props…shhhh) Managed to actually sleep! If you know me, that is a miraculous feat! I think that about sums up my week – I’m sure I’m leaving something out, but it’s alright – I’ve lost my mind, so I think I did pretty good wrapping it up.

Next week I will do better to capture a little more of my week in pictures. Doesn’t matter how old we get, we still like pictures to go with our stories.

So until next week…be safe, have fun, enjoy the little moments, cherish what you have because you have all you need at this very moment.

Fave quote of the week:

“Each day of our lives we make deposits in the memory banks of our children.” -Charles R. Swindoll

Blessings,

Kristen Marie ♥

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